2 YEARS AGO

It's been two years since we lost our baby boy, Carlos. Two years!!! It feels like ages ago, at the same time, it feels like it was just yesterday. This precious boy will always be with us in spirit. I have said it many times before, but this boy was my "soul mate". I miss him every single day.

R.I.P. CARLOS
1999.12.31 to 2007.09.20

Love you, Carlos!

I cannot stop thinking about him

The last few days I have caught myself feeling sad... and after a few seconds I have remembered why...

CARLOS!!!

He's been on my mind ALL THE TIME. I miss my beloved baby and soul mate like crazy. Damn, I wish he was here. I wanna cuddle, hug and kiss him... My beloved Big Boy.

Me sad. :(

I miss my ..

CARLOS...

All I can think about is Carlos, Carlos, Carlos, Carlos, Carlos... :(

In Loving Memory

365 days have passed, since the worst day of my life. It was September the 20th 2007 (the day after my 30th birthday) that I lost my baby, my son, my best friend, my guardian - my beloved Carlos. THE WORST DAY OF MY LIFE! And not a day has passed without thinking about him or actually talking about him. Mr. L and I talk about Carlos everyday like he was still very much with us... well, actually he is... and he always will be.

If a dog (or any animal for that matter) can be a human being’s soul mate, Carlos was mine. If you didn’t know him, no words can describe him well enough... He had a halo over his head... he was an angel with his big heart and loving manners.

When I think of Carlos now-a-days, it usually puts a big smile on my face as I remember him with great affection, I remember his wonderful personality, and of course I remember and cheerish all the good memories we have together... but there are still days when I just want to scream, pull my hair and just cry my eyes out when thinking about not having him with me anymore. It’s unbelievable that he is no longer with us... :(

If you ever met my wonderful baby, please take a moment to remember this amazing dog today, it truly would mean a great deal to me. There will never ever be anyone like him again.

I will miss you every single day for the rest of my life – I love you with all my heart, Carlos...you will always be my Big Boy!

I love music and I thought these songs say it all...


LeAnn Rimes - "Amazing Grace"



Eric Clapton - "Tears in Heaven"


P. Diddy & Faith Evans - "I'll be missing you"

A Poem - for Carlos

Upon this day I reminisce
With sadness and regret
The loss of my beloved
Special "child" who was my pet.

It's been a year of longing
Wishing you'd return to me ...
For though you left one year ago,
I cannot "set you free".

Though time has made it easier,
To go from day to day ...
No one can understand the
"Special" role your life did play.

For every day you were a part,
Of love and joy and life ...
You had a way that focussed me
And lessened daily strife.

I'd hurry home to see your face,
Behind that window pane;
Where wiggles, hugs and cuddles
Brightened up the worst of days.

And now I sit, with eyes tear filled,
You are not by my side;
And when I see the window,
It is bare and bleak inside.

Emotions, they are raw today,
I'm simply torn apart ...
For hollow, wrenching feelings
Tear apart this very heart.

An emptiness, that's deeper than
The oceans ... fill my soul;
A painful hunger bites my
Inner self beyond control.

For though time healed the daily wounds
I wore upon my sleeve,
I shelter from the world outside
Just what you meant to me.

To me, you were more human
Than some others I have known ...
You gave such love and tenderness;
T'was deep within your soul.

- unknown

CARLOS <3

Carlos was the most amazing dog in the whole world, he and I had a very special bond... The 2 of us simply belonged together.

He was the kindest and most lovable dog one could ever ask for. He was an excellent guardian & protector who we used to call our very own "Chief of Police" since he was on the clock 24/7. He would not miss a beat. He was a s sweet as could be around his family, but also the best guard dog one could ever ask for.
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R.I.P - BIG BOY

Dec 31, 1999 to Sep 20, 2007

Above: Cute as a button :)

Above: The Big Baby loved to sleep, and especially in his very own bed along with his stuffed animals. :)

Above: He could charm anyone...:)

Above: He spent his last years in Sweden and the snow was probably the best part about this new country.

Above: A snow angel...

Above: He was an excellent swimmer and loved to spend time in the water.

Above: He also loved to chill with his "brother".

Above: This was our "dream team" because better dogs than this are impossible to get.

How many kisses?

How many times a day do you kiss your babies (or baby)? Obviously I'm refering to my four-legged babies. :)

I must kiss my babies like a hundred million times a day. Poor things. :) Well, maybe not Alih 'cause when he's had enough he growls at me..hihi..he's a freak. James I can kiss as much as I want to though, and that I do. :) And he usually plants some wet ones right back on me.

But the one who probably loved my kisses the most was Carlos. He would never get enough of it. He would close his eyes and squeeze in tight, tight next to me while enjoying every second of every kiss... hihi...My cute baby bear.

I mean seriously, how can you walk by those super cute babies and not kiss them??!! It's almost impossible! As a matter of fact, I will have to go find Jay and Alih right now ...:)

Big Girls Do Cry

I don’t write about my baby Carlos on the blog very often. But that’s because it’s still such a sensitive topic. It is quite amazing how you can survive losing someone that means so much to you. When it happens it is such a life altering experience that hurts so bad that you can’t help but wonder... Is this going to kill me?

No words can describe how much Carlos meant to me... He was my dog, my baby, my guardian, my best friend... he was my EVERYTHING! Carlos was the heart in our family! Not a day goes by without me thinking about him, and missing him like crazy.

When we came back home from the vet, having been given the devastating diagnosis, Carlos and I laid down on the bed just looking at each other... I had the TV on in the background and my favourite song at the time was playing .. Big Girls Don’t Cry with Fergie.

Every time I hear this song now, I think of Carlos..... it has become “our song”. Here it is...



We miss you losis ... love you - always!

My Boyz

I was looking for pics of Jay from when he was a real little puppy but could not find any in my folks' computer. On the other hand, I found several pics of my Boyz when they were young. Check out how cute they were...My God I miss my beloved Carlos so much - he was gorgeous and perfect in every possible way.

Above pic: Alih about 4-5 mon

Above pic: Alih about 6 mon

Above pic: Alih about 6-7 mon

Above pic: Carlos about 8-9 mon

Above pic: Carlos about 8-9 mon

Above pic: Carlos about 9 mon